I feel like I am on the edge. Not in a bad way, but a new way. We are hoping to move Sarah and I to the DC area. I am researching services for her, to see where would be the best place to land. So that is ongoing.
There may be a few snags along the way, but some day, some way, Sarah will live down there. The boys are her guardians, they need access to her and she needs to see them more often. But the details! Oh, the details. That is where the stress will come from. I tell myself to keep an eye on the big picture, the rest will fall into place. OK. OK.
I check the weather down there, it will be in the 50s to 60s this week! Get me there. Up here there is 2 feet of snow in my yard, the driveway is a sheet of ice and Sarah hasn't been out of the house in 7 weeks. I am so over it. Yes, I know that in August, it will be 100 degrees in DC, but that's what air conditioning is for, right?
In other news, Jimmy and Lauryn are having a baby in October. Very exciting. They worked hard for this baby and are adjusting to the wonderful news themselves. I will be a grandma. I mean, Nanna. That's the name I choose, we shall see what the baby does with it, lol. It could turn out to be something entirely different.
I have cut back on work to 2 days a week. It's much better. I feel less stressed, Sarah is relaxed and I am bringing less viruses home to her and I from work (I am a nurse). Good all around.
Jimmy is turning 30 next month. The big 3-0! How did this happen? He's practically middle-aged, ha! So Lauryn is hosting a party for him and she is flying me down secretly to surprise him. I am looking forward to it, maybe there will be cherry blossoms to see too. John is driving down from NJ. All good. Lauryn is happy we are coming. It will be a tease, because I will not want to leave and return to Mass. But I must come back to my girl and hopefully start packing everything up to make the move. Fingers crossed.
As far as me personally, this is a big move. The rest of my family is up here, so that's hard. I'm also getting older and I find change is more stressful, even good change. Anxiety lurks closer to the surface now. But we miss the boys terribly. As I said to Jimmy, "I have missed the last 10 years of your life, I don't want to miss the next 10". That sums it up for me.
So on we go, in faith and hope.
